Driving down the road, I glance in the rear-view mirror.
The little guy I dropped off at the beginning of the school year is now a whole year bigger.
I can’t believe a whole school year has passed. I can’t believe my guy is getting so big.
He is so sweet. I turn around to see his beautiful face that is now almost a third grader and give him a great big smile. I keep sneaking peeks of him in the mirror and he just laughs and looks away like he doesn’t notice. Being my first born and the only one in school I can only hope that this gets easier.
The end of the school year is hardest for me. I know some people struggle at the beginning of the year but I spend the last few days of school sad about another year passing by.
As the tears stream down my face, I quickly search for my sunglasses to keep him from seeing me melt right in front of him. As I force a smile through my sadness, he just giggles. Thank God for those angel smiles that He sends through our little kids when times are tough.
As I look in the rear view mirror at my guy, I wonder what he sees when he looks back at me.
My inner struggle lately has been with second guessing my thoughts, actions, and reactions to my children. My greatest desire is that my kids will grow up to love Jesus with all their hearts. I feel this pressure as being the person that they look at and see the genuine love of Jesus. I just wonder who the Jesus is they see in me. As mothers we have a great influence on our children that we should consider carefully.
One of our favorite things to do is sing. We spend every morning driving to school singing to the tunes of our favorite Christian radio station. We crank up the radio and sing loudly, well okay maybe just I sing loudly. But I can see their little mouths ready to break out in song any day now.
I often times get strange looks as I am driving down the road because I have one hand on the wheel and the other hand lifted to the heavens praising my Lord. I usually get funny looks because people are not sure if I am waving at them or yelling at them (I do sing loudly in my car, not well, just loudly). Don’t worry I focus on my driving.
My kids know that I love Jesus. We talk about Him at every opportunity. He is a part of who we are but my desire is that He is not just a part of who we are or just pieces of us but that He defines all our actions, thoughts, and ways. We Praise Him for constantly transforming us and making us more like Him every day.
Paul gives us great direction for our personal responsibility in Romans 12. In verse 1 Paul tells us that we are to give ourselves to God because all He has done for us. This means that daily we have to consciously and intently give up our own desires to follow Him.
In verse 2 Paul continues, Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.
If I want to be able to look at my kids in the mirror and wonder what they are seeing when they look back at me I can always look to the instruction manual that God gave us for daily living, His Word.
Don’t copy the behavior or customs of this world. That is hard. That is why we have to be intent about our choices. Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
How many of us often times turn to the people around us for counsel on our daily lives. We turn to our significant others, our family, our friends, and social media. What is the problem with that? Some of you may be thinking, nothing. Look at these two verses.
Proverbs tells us to trust in the Lord and not in ourselves and our own understanding, Romans 12:2 says Let God transform you and your thinking, not to conform to the thinking of this world.
What is the harm with turning to others? What is the problem with going for advice or help with our kids, family, marriage, jobs, and finances, to other people?
My thoughts and your thoughts are limited to our own understanding. We are finite. Limited to what we can see and understand.
Psalm 147:5 says, Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit. (NIV) Other versions use the word infinite. He can see it all, past, present, and future. He can see the whole picture.
If I want my kids to see Jesus in me, Proverbs 3:6 says, In all my ways, every situation, the Good, the bad, and the often times messy, I turn to Him. I acknowledge Him first. I go to Him first to teach me to be the mom He wants me be and to be like more like Him.
His promises are He will guide my paths, He will make my paths straight. He will guide me and transform me to be more like Him. I have to let God transform me into a new person by changing the way I think. Changing the way I act. Changing me from the inside out.
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