My Garden Prayer and Sitting Among Friends #47

It was Wednesday and in the hopes of pursuing “life as normal”, I went to church. I was my son’s class teacher and I thought we could use the break.

When we got to church, I felt the urge to go to the sanctuary to pray.

For the first time in my life, I felt the urge to be absolutely broken before my King and He called me to my knees.

Don’t get me wrong, I had cried out before to the Lord in desperation. But I had never come before Him when He has called me to surrender.

I had before me an unexplained loss and I thought I would come for answers. Wouldn’t you know it, when you bend your knee in surrender, He is willing to give you a few.

Tucked in the pew, on my knees, I looked at the cross that hung at the front of the church. As I began to shudder in tears, the words poured from my heart.

Heavenly Father,
I don’t understand. Please help me to see.I know you and only you can make the tests wrong. You can prove to everyone you are a miracle worker.
I know I have strayed far from you and I am sorry.
Lord, only you know what happened, only you can make their hearts beat again.
Lord, only you know the outcome of this and can see how this is going to end and so now I want to surrender myself and my babies to you. 
Lord, if they are sick, if they could not take this world then thank you and I love you for taking care of them and keeping them in your loving arms. Lord, they are far better off than I am.
If, you want me to take care of them, Lord, I would be honored and I will do what I can to be a good mom.
I am asking, Lord, in this moment that you do your will, not mine, but yours. If you are willing to take this from me, then I will promise to do my part in caring for them.
If it is your will, then I promise to love you no matter what your decision.
Over and over, I prayed. Over and Over, I submitted my will.
Not my will but yours be done. I promise to love you, no matter what.
As my heart wrenched, I said, Lord I ask for one thing. I ask that you give me peace beyond my understanding.  
I walked out the sanctuary and into the rest of the week.

Friday came. We went for another ultrasound. The results. No heartbeats. As the doctor attempted to explain the procedure, I told him, I knew what they needed to do.

Because of the procedure, I was not able to see them. In an attempt to protect me, it took two grueling days.

I can’t explain my heartache but I can explain the overwhelming peace that was beyond my understanding.

The empty places in my heart that were reserved just for them, is filled with the love and peace of God that only He can offer.

A couple of years later, I was doing an in-depth study on the life of Jesus. What I saw in looking at my own past I, too, moved by the spirit, had my own Garden Prayer.

Before Jesus endured the cross, He went to the Garden of Gethsemane to pray.

As His soul was consumed with sorrow to the point of death, He fell facedown to the ground before His Father and prayed.

"Abba, Father," he cried out, "everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine." Mark 14:36 (NLT)

Then after returning from the disciples.
He went away a second time and prayed, "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done."  Matthew 26:42 (NIV)

God the Father could have taken the cup from Jesus. God could have chosen a different route. But Jesus bent His knee and will to His Father.

They knew it was the only way. He was the perfect and final sacrifice needed to bring us into a perfect relationship with the Father.

But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds, we are healed. Isaiah 53:5 (NIV)

Why would He suffer?

For you and me!

So we could be brought into peace before our Heavenly Father. So we could be healed by His wounds.

Your story may not be the same as mine. But we have all suffered. In John 16:33 Jesus tells us in this world you will have trials and sorrows, but take heart, I have overcome the world!

Next week, I want to offer you more Hope that comes from healing and comfort from the Lord in our times of brokenness, hopelessness, and suffering. Please return for the final piece in this mini-series.


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29 comments :

  1. Thanks, Jaime, for bringing us into your grieving and healing process.
    And thanks, too, for featuring Meghan's writing space here. She's such an encouraging friend.

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    1. I am glad that you have come on this journey with me. She is such an encouragement as so many of you are. I appreciate you visiting us here every week, Michele.

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  2. I am sorry for your loss, sweet Jaime. I pray these words find hearts who need to know they are not alone. The garden prayers. Oh, yes. I know of these too. You are right though, in the end they are so fruitful because God always has a bigger scope and plan than what our eyes can see. Thanks for sharing my blog here! I appreciate your words and your gentle spirit as you write each week, friend. Prayers & blessings!

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    1. Thanks for sharing with us every week, Meg. I do appreciate the encouragement you offer to others and your honest place of writing and help people along the journey. Have a great week!

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  3. Thank you for sharing your story Jaime, it was beautifully written. I was just recently thinking about the fact that God feels heartbreak, that Jesus felt pain, and how oddly comforting that is when we feel those things. God knows how we feel, so amazing.

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    1. Thank you so much, Kira. Isn't it amazing that God shares in our heartbreak. We are His children and just as our heart breaks He knows and understands our pain. We can find great comfort in the fact that God knows! Thank you so much for coming here, friend!

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  4. What a beautiful prayer, Jaime. And that you for sharing your story!! <3

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    1. Thank you, Lauren and thanks for stopping by!

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  5. I love Meg and seeing her featured here!

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    1. She is a so encouraging and has such a great heart for sharing her love of the Lord, just as so many of the people that come here every week, such as yourself. I do appreciate you and you encouraging comments every week, Susan.

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  6. Love reading your story! It is so encouraging!

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    1. Thank you so much, Keri. I do appreciate your kind words. You site looks great by the way! I like the layout and all that you are doing there.

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  7. Thank you Jaime for sharing your story! It's so encouraging to see God come in and fill those broken areas with His love. We know that it's available to each of us also.
    Nice seeing Meg here too! I love her blog!
    Julie

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    1. I am glad you are here every week, Julie! It is so encouraging to see God come into those places and cracks that we feel will remain broken. In the moment we may not be able to see how He will restore us but we can be certain that if we let Him, He will! Thanks for sharing with us, friend!

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  8. This post touched me so deeply. I have had such a moment too. I sought God in my own garden during a time of despair and He came and touched me beyond belief. Thanks for sharing your heart and for this special linkup.

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    1. Isn't He so gracious, Mary. He will not only heal us but is willing to do it much beyond what we can comprehend. He gives us more that all we could ask or imagine. Thanks for visiting our linkup here, Mary!

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  9. Such a powerful testimony of release and acceptance, Jaime. I'm certain God is using your story to comfort and minister to others. God bless you.

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    1. God is good! That is the foundational truth that we have to believe. From there we can build a stronger faith always relying on Him. When the ground begins to shake and our footings want to give way, we have Him to give us hope in the fall of His faithfulness. Thanks so much for sharing with is here, June. I am glad to have you!

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  10. Dear Jaime, this is such a wonderful post. Anyone who has been through the heartache of miscarriage, would surely be uplifted. I am happy to be joining you this week. Mimi xxx

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    1. Thanks so much, Mimi! I appreciate you being here this week. I do hope this encourages someone and their aching or healing heart! May God be glorified, as always, through it all.

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  11. Jaime..glad I got her today, and I am sorry to hear this story yet happy that God gives us comfort I. All seasons

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    1. I am so glad you are here today too, friend! I have missed seeing your posts and was just going to check in on you. Have a great weekend!

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  12. Thanks for hosting! Just found your link up today; can't wait to continue linking up in the future, and to explore your blog more!

    caseygcapra.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you, Casey for visiting us here today and welcome you enjoy what you see and read. I write to encourage others in their journeys and I hope you find this to be a source of that encouragement! Have a great week!

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  13. Great prayer and you are a strong person.

    I tend to say little prayers through out the day. It gives me comfort.

    Thanks for hosting and have a good week.

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    1. I think that is great, Patrick. 1 Thessalonians tells is to pray continually or pray without ceasing. God wants to hear it all all day long. Little or big he wants to hear them all. Have a great week, my friend!

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  14. Jaime you are so strong. God bless you. Though I've had my share of surrendering prayers- over houses and relationships- none come close to yours. Thank you for sharing- and for featuring dear Meg! ♥

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    1. Thank you for that, Heather but the truth is I have a strong God. Tonight my kids and I were reading about how God spoke the whole world in to existence with His spoken word. Now that is power and strength that I want on my side. So glad you are here, friend!

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  15. Wow Jaime! I love the tern Garden Prayer. To answer your question, my "garden prayer" occurred in nothing resembling a garden at all. My hospital bed. It was there in that moment six years ago I realized God had a plan for my life. It did not involve making six figures, driving a fancy car, or living in an exclusive neighborhood. He has an exclusive neighborhood planned(Heaven) for me. In the meantime, He desires that I am sold out for Him and His glory. As my transformation continues my love for Jesus grows stronger each day. Thank you for sharing this beautiful, heartfelt post with us here. What an inspiration. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. May continue to richly bless you and yours.

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